Monday, August 20, 2012

Back to Work

No revelations or advice tonight, as I've been pretty pensive for the last few days.

Work for me starts again next week, and it's a bittersweet thing. I'm tired of lounging around the house every day, though being home alone allows my creativity to blossom. It's been a productive summer. Not quite as much as I hoped, I'm afraid, but I still got a lot of stuff done, improved my craft, and had fun. But seeing the awesome people I work with and spending time with those kids is something to look forward to. 

I miss working. Working with children, helping them through their struggles and cheering them when they triumph, is so inspiring. I thought when I started the job that I'd be out in a year, on to bigger and better things, and that I didn't have the patience to continue. And then I fell in love. Every child is unique and beautiful, and watching their journeys has been so fulfilling.

On the other side, I'm actually a bit scared. Last year was physically and emotionally draining. I made it through okay, but walked away with scars. My arms are a physical reminder of how hard it was, my memories a mental one. And I know that this year may be almost as difficult. I have so much respect for those who make teaching their life, but I am not one of those people. I love my job, but my dreams lie elsewhere.

For now, I guess, all I can do is go back to work and hope for the best while creating in the background.

I do have a question to pose, though. Authors, artists, musicians, creators out there, where do you work--assuming you don't make enough money with your creations to pay the bills? Does it interfere with your creativity? And if so, how do you manage?



  1. Funny thing-your blog post almost exactly goes along with what I've been thinking about all week... I start work again next week too, and I also thought that I'd be moving on to bigger and better things. I am excited to be on a schedule again as I tend to be loads more productive when I am. This summer I've been terribly unproductive. I had hoped to get so many things done, but... they didn't happen... Working does make me more tired, but the creativity still comes once in a while, and when it does, I usually decide that I can lose out on sleep every once in a while to let my creativity work its course...

    1. Having a schedule can motivate me to work, but only if it's done right. Setting aside time in advance to write doesn't usually happen, but when I have other obligations I feel like my free time HAS to be spent on one of my projects.

      Well, you did get some things done. And you will. Are you planning on doing NaNo again this year? It got you really far last time. ;)

  2. I didn't know you worked with kids! I can see how that'd be both rewarding and draining. Hopefully all goes well once you go back to work next week!

    I don't work yet--am in the process of finding a job, actually--but college was definitely a creativity-sucker, back when I attended. It kinda makes me dread what will happen once I find a job....

    1. Well, it has been pretty good so far. I was pleasantly surprised by the behavior I've seen this past week--although I worry that it's just a honeymoon period and when they settle in they might start acting up...

      College was a big sucker for me too, and I found that it was not made for people like me. But working doesn't seem to be quite as bad, probably because there's a good separation between work-space and creative-space. College was one of those things you had to lug with you wherever you went.