So it's been a week since I started school/work again, and it's been surprisingly easy. Right now it's mostly stubbornness and laziness that are irritating me, and the one I thought would be trouble has been like a little angel (although I'm sure that's just a honeymoon phase). Also, a few of the kids this year have some sad circumstances at home, and it always shows when they come to school. My heart goes out to them and their families, and I wish I could do more to help. But for now, I have to be content with talking to the kids and helping them cope during class.
The beginning of the school year also means I failed at a few of my goals. I haven't finished my rewrite, regardless of the many late nights and hours spent poring over my manuscript. I still have several heroes, a Rex, and Starfire to finish painting. I haven't drawn all of the character combinations for Dungeonball yet. I got close with all of these things, but I'm just not there yet. I could blame it on my bad habits, on playing too many video games (particularly Xenoblade and FFXI), on stress, or on the distractions the internet provides. But the truth is, I don't care what the reasons are. I don't want to fuss over those things, because they don't matter. All that matters is that I keep going, and that I get these things done. And I will. Soon.
I started a sticker chart for my home-based writing group a few weeks ago, and I know it's helping. Being held accountable for stuff, even in small ways, motivates me to be responsible.
Actually, I know why I haven't met my writing goal. But I won't bother to whine about it or try to excuse myself, because I don't need that. I just need to write.
Well... I'll leave off with a list of things I did accomplish this summer:
- Read 5 books, and wrote at least 3,000 words per week.
- Painted and varnished every small monster, treasure, and spawning point, 4 heroes, and a Rex, meaning I've completed over 40 miniatures.
- Created 31 original characters for Dungeonball.
- Storyboarded, researched, and begun drawing for the children's book I'm illustrating.
- And yes, finished a few video games.
So, not as bad as I'm making it sound. Regardless of my failure, I'm proud of what I was able to accomplish. Now the question is, will I be able to make my goals by the end of the year when I have to work every day?